Shouldve posted this long ago. Beyonce Crazy in Love
I’ve learned not to judge him based on his past relationships. Who I’m with is a transition of the person he was. I have been unfair when it comes to throwing shit in his face. Pushing him over the limit just to get a reaction out of him. Trying to see if I can get him to this overly emotional level that I’m statisfiyed with. Maybe he’ll express his true feelings about some old bitch he has a past with. It’s pathetic of me. Because I know at the end of the day his heart is with me. It’s just really hard to believe.
I want his hand around my throat while he fucks me. I want him to look into my eyes and say “I love you” as he squeezes tighter.
I’m just a needy piece of shit that needs constant reassurance that I’m wanted
Please make your woman feel like she’s everything. Remember that she choose you out of billions of possiblities and you choose her. Show her off. You won nigga.
My only desire is to be alone. What would make me happy is if I could not deal with anyone. Most of all I’m really starting to dislike my guy. I don’t know if its because I’m preggo but all of his traits that is not what I want is starting to show. I hate to admit this. I do, because we’re starting a family but I need to think long and hard about what I want my baby exposed to. I’m no angel but I know a little. I have faith, I know not to live too reckless. I’m a lady. I try my best to show what I’ve learned and help but I’m no ones parent. I don’t know whatelse to do. I just know I may have to swallow all this up, tough’n up and be prepared to raise my child on my own the way I see fit. Not saying he won’t be a hands-on dad which I’m sure he will be but I have to do this for him or her.